One of the things I love about this blog is that I can be honest.  Even when it humbles me, I enjoy sharing from my heart and being transparent.  Maybe it’s easier this way because the kids are asleep and I’m in my pajamas.  Regardless of the “why”, this must be a form of therapy for me.

The past several weeks have been somewhat chaotic in our household. From countless appointments and activities, it has been overwhelming to say the least.  I won’t bore you with the details, but almost every member of our family has needed medical attention.  Bizarre, out of nowhere issues that have left me crying out to God more than ever before.  Not to free me of my circumstances, I just need Him.  I need to talk it over with Jesus.  I need to find out what He says about these situations.

The other day, I felt completely helpless and fear began to consume my heart.  And I asked God this simple question… “What do You say about this?”.  And here was His response:

“……For I have learned how to be content with whatever I have.  I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little.  For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.”

Philippians 4:11-13

It was as if the clouds parted and I began to see clearly again.  It’s amazing how quickly our faith can be tested and our thinking begins to shift.  Doubt creeps in and we are left searching for answers.  But when the Word of God is spoken over our situation, it has to change.  Now, my present circumstances did not.  But my thinking did.  As children of God, we are not promised an easy ride.  But we are guaranteed that He will be with us.  I believe in the passage above, Paul had found the secret of life.  The secret to joy, despite the world around him.  He knew who God really was.  And he knew that He is always good.  It’s Christ in us, the hope of glory.

We will never understand all of the who-what-where-when-and-why’s in this lifetime.  But I’m persuaded to believe, the more we get to know Him, the more we can say “it is well with my soul”.  That no matter what we’re facing, we can trust that God’s plans our higher than ours.  Even if the road getting there is bumpy, it will make sense in the end.  We can walk through the darkest of vallies and His grace will light the way.  His love will lead us home.